It Was Never Love

©2013 Louise Gallagher

It was never love
that held me captive
in your arms
where I was lost
to all sight
sound
feeling
knowing
but the fear
of never getting back
the one I met
when first you said
I will always love you
and stole
my peace of mind
in my yearning
for the chimera
of a love that never existed.

You were the lie
the one who decieved
with every breath
the one who promised
with every word
to betray me.

And you did
betray me
yet in the end
I didn’t need you
to tell me who I am

In the end
I found myself
awakening
to the truth

It wasn’t love
you gave so freely.

It was lies.

Spring Waits

©2013 Louise Gallagher

Spring waits
in silent anticipation
of promises
yet to awaken
beneath the snow
where roots dig
deep
into memory frozen
in the yearning for the return
of summer.

I lay
silent in the dark
dreaming
of your arms
holding me
deep within the night
where your touch
burns
my skin hot
with memories awakening
in the sultry heat of the return
of summer.

Becoming

©2013 Louise Gallagher

Before the beginning
there was nothing
and in that place
everything became
that which still was
and is
nothing

Falling
I let go of everything
I know
to become
the nothing
of everything
I am

Becoming
everything I am
I remain
part of the nothing
that always is
and always was
manifest
and unmanifest
in my
becoming
the nothing
and the everything
I have always been.

Nature is Persistent

©2013 Louise Gallagher

Nature is persistent
it makes rivers out of streams
wearing away at rock
to carve
a course for water
to flow
freely
and in its constant
eroding away
of what was
to reveal
what can be
I let go
of holding onto the shore
and cast myself
into the waters
of life
flowing
all around
to become
all that I am meant to be.

The Universe Is Calling

©2013 Louise Gallagher

The Universe greeted me this morning
showed up
in all its limitless possibilities
as sleep fell away
and I arose to meet the day.

Silently I slipped out of my bed
padded barefoot into the kitchen
and poured myself a glass of water
I stood and gazed out
at the predawn
light
of day
rising

And in the silence
of that moment
I felt
the miracle
of life
flowing within me
I felt the life-giving force
of water coursing
through my veins

Awakened
I stood by my kitchen window
and peered out into the dark
bathed
in the soft gentle glow
of the universe
calling me to rise
and shine.

Coloring Outside the Lines

©2013 Louise Gallagher

Fearing what is there
I hit the wall and fall
back
back against my fear
that moving forward
will get me
nowhere
but right here
lying in my fear
of colouring in my life.

Fearing I will never
find my way
I find myself
falling
falling into my fear
that there is nothing
on the other side
of the wall
but darkness
and my fear of falling.

Breathing
I stand up
and take another step
fearlessly
fearlessly moving
through the wall
I have created
to keep me safe
from my fear
that I will find myself
colouring
outside the lines.

Living At The Speed Of Life

©2013 Louise Gallagher

Living
at the speed of life
the broken down
pieces
fall
into the whole
puzzle
becoming clear
of what I’ve missed
passing by
without stopping
to check
the cracks
appearing
larger
than life
when I stood
back
waiting
for life
to appear
as one
big
answer
to the question
Why am I here?

I am here
to dance
and laugh
and live
and love
between the cracks
appearing
in the light
of living at the speed of life.

Stretched

©2013 Louise Gallagher

skin
stretched thin
blue veined hands
spiny fingers
crooked
she held
his hand
tenderly
in the night
and waited
for his last breath
to draw
in the air
around her

love
stretched wide
two hearts
finding
eachother
she remembered
his breath
warm against
her skin
drawing
out
the night

time
stretched out
upon a calendar
of years
spent
finding their way
together
to this moment
where his breath
drew in
and ended
all time.

Time Unravelling

©2012 Louise Gallagher

Living in the ends of time
unravelling
backwards
I fall into remembering

you
were so forgettable

I no longer remember
your parting
touch
drifting into a farewell
I have long forgotten

how we met
then said good-bye

did you walk away
or did I turn my back
for just a moment too long

mistaking
the ring
of bells tolling

binding me
in a knot
that could not keep
the matrimonial vows
from coming

undone
I bid you
stay

you bid me
adieu

and walked
away
into a dusty sunset

while I stood facing
the dusty
rose of sunrise
splitting
the back of night.

Living in the ends
of time
unravelling
the knots
that keep me looking
back
I turn towards the sun
letting go
of gravity
pulling me under
the waters
of time
unravelling.

Let Me Show You

©2013 Louise Gallagher

Wait!
Don’t go
don’t leave me in this place
of not knowing
where to go.

Stop!
Don’t leave
me here in this position
of not being
where I want to be.

Help!
I need you
to show me the way
to get to where
I’m going.

Come!
I’ve found
the way out of the dark
in the light
of being here.